sad ...gloomy days

now i have figured out...tht my concentration level is much lower than the rest of guys around me...

forget classroom , but its making thing worse everywhere! now i knw why always i complain everything around is boring...be it any movie i start looking here n thr , start gaming on phone , read old texts n then i say movie was boring while rest of guys enjoy, i cant remember when was the last time i watched movie at one go ,, even the movie i liked , i watched it in parts (if on pc) or playing wit phone , checkin mails, fb in theatre

k forget movie too...waht happens in exam...right after thirty-forty minutes things start fading from my mind , i break into singing or start looking around,,,watching all the guys writing w.o wasting a sec..n so i go out on pretext of loo , but i just roam around, read arbit stuffs on notice board n come back wasting so much of time 

even a smallest piece of painting , i take ages to complete it , no wonder i have such a huge collection of incomplete painting 

donno how to fix this 

waht the hell u want then!

rewind and redo...may b u'll get to c something hidden

now this one is serious ..have been fighting this for a week now but i guess its not workin..few things have been scaring me for a while now

i do miss my school days and its not tht stupid "i miss my school and friends " feeling :-x 

i actually didnt have many close friends at school but yes those days were as good as fantasy..a fairytale   ...i want to become like i was then ..was just turning my old class lecture notes ..n felt as if it happened yesterday ..just overnight my life changed this much  

2 years hence revisting all that i should do something to preserve "tht someting -which still i dont knw waht" in me .

i have done something wrong with me ..which pulled me down n down ...n now its now or never time..its on.. " save urself or dont regret later"

missing my school days (pre-college) so dearly ...jus wanna relive tht life again ...though i never wished to fly back in my old times and given an option right now to meet all my batch mates i'll preferably choose to stay away ..but thr is smthing in those moments which is calling me n making me look back damn! its painful 

i think i need to b more responsible for my statements lest things will keep getting messy...thr r ppl who i hardly give damn! but stilll it feels bad n scary if they have wrong notion abt u cuz they 'll somehow make another chain of ppl plagued by thr ideas..in hence create a bunch of avoidable scary crowd ..   

wth is wrong wit messenger...few days back i logged in mess (after ages) n holy crap! it has touched new heights of irritating ppl ...wen smn signs in there is knock on door, signs out thr is sm cat purr or door closing sound..(donno exactly) :-x ... my last encounter was really hell as i entered chat room (suggested by my dear friend saying "bohot maza ata hai" ) but the moment i entered (twas physics chat room ) mayhem!! some hundreds of buzz n pings ..." asl? , wanna c my gf's pic  ? " n i was like "shut upp !..am not tht kinds" n blah blah... hah..scary !! 

well yday i met my old skool mate..n it turned into sucha horror! man!! i had to leave my annual function in middle ...i think we interacted for some 30mins n it was disaster

akanksha n i was wondering who the hell had called her !!

all the time she was pulling my cheeks wit her pointy nails n the word "cute" turned so scary for me :X

but she crossed the line wen she told yavi (my senior) "we wer school girlfriends" ..n i was like holy crap! get me rid off her

but the next target was yavi xD

she was asking us about waht to wear- jeans or salwar kameez

priyanka (the gal!) " oh u r looking like queen in jeans , dont wear salwar kameez or u'll look bulls#!t"

yavi's expression #@% n i was rofling ..heheh

i had no choice but ask akanksha to give her company cuz i was planning to get busy ..tho i was being cursed for this ..!

n yeah she even asked me ..."do u want my perfume"

me "no :-/ "

she " i thot u liked my fragnance"

me " okay :X "

it was right after the lunch akanksha was scolded me for leaving her wit priyanka ..(n ppl even doubted tht they both wer sisters - i guess both had similar ' bugging ppl ' quotient  

m then we both decided to escape from party n her sight!

hah!! 

ps: i might sound rude but it was real torture

driver (to manish bhaiya):kabhi kisi madamji or sardarji k piche park nhi karna chahiye..madamji log toh cut k end me indicator lagati hai,horn toh bhool hi jao;8-10 ko thok k hi car chalana seekhti hain
(after realising tht i was getting miffed over this)he said :madamji aap plz mind mat karna!
|me: wth! moo bund karke drive karna nhi ata kya x(
|driver : lagta hai madamji naraz ho gyi
|me: jab chalaungi toh apse better chalaungi
|driver: rehne do apki umar (sic) beet  jayegi..bla bla